~SUSu and jeSUS~

Incredible India #2

2010-08-27T20:49:00.001+08:00

Can't even blog nowadays.
Will blog again soon.
*nod*

Incredible India #1: Adventures and Misadventures

2010-08-15T17:23:00.001+08:00

We arrived safely and soundly at 11.30pm local time at Bengaluru Airport, and headed straight to Presidency Hotel. The hotel itself is not bad, and the most interesting thing is the wooden sliding lock and brass knockers. We had buffet breakfast there. I had poori and hard-boiled eggs. Nobody can tell us why the egg shells are white in colour and why they place the eggs on salt.

I was one of the latest one to board on the bus to airport for our flight to Pune as I was waiting for ne of my roommate. The whole bus was waiting for us and we were rushing like crazy. And then, I did the most embarrassing thing in the world. My laptop bag flip the whole plant pot over and clang, the next thing I know, all eyes were on me and the poor plant on the floor^^. Presidency Hotel shall remember me forever. Thank God the pot is metal, if not have to compensate the management. To quote someone, I am not being silly, I am just being me. *sigh*

We were in time for the flight, my third one in two days time, and I begin to dislike flying. The seats were all cramped together and the whole journey is worse than traveling on a bus. Next time I want to be rich and travel by Business Class. *determined*

On arrival in Pune, we stopped for lunch. The driver took 40 minutes to find the restaurant and we were U-turning for so many times . The traffic in Pune is crazy. Cars, two-wheelers and pedestrian pop out from anywhere at anytime. While we were stopping at the red light, there were sales people coming up to cars selling their products and some beggars asking for money. One lady was carrying a small child, walking here and there in the middle of the road. What I can only read in travel guides and review becomes real right in front of me. I feel very bad for these people. While some of their own countrymen are living luxuriously, these people are trapped for ther whole life, in this kind of living condition and that is all they expect from life. I do not know how, but I pray I will be able to do something about it.

Back to our lunch. I had briyani for the first time in my life, and it is sooooooo good but very spicy. I was gulping glass after glass of water^^. The journey to Karad took almost 2 and a half hours and we passed by tolls that looks like a tool shed in Malaysia. *serious* It was quite windy, but sometimes the wind will bring a familiar smell -- smell of cow dung. We passed by very beautiful hills, went across a tunnel, and along the way to Karad, there are millions, no tens of millions of sugar cane plants by the highway. Even though it is a high way, we passed by people walking, and quite a number of small villages.

There were a lot of lorries and trucks on the highway, and the back of each truck was written “Horn OK Please”. Indeed, the honking is so common and natural that I got used to it after half an hour. People honk at everything. Only not at cows. The cows here have their horn painted red or blue and are really treated as Gods. Sometimes we can see people wearing saree sitting on a two wheeler in the most dangerous and acrobatic way, lol.

We arrived at KIMS safely and soundly and were all very impressed with the University and our hostel (photos soon^^). We have everything that we can asked for. I tried the Masala tea and thank God they don’t serve that every meal. The first meal I didn’t take much, as my wisdom tooth is hurting again. But the breakfast on Friday was awesome, as in awesome=Malaysian^^. I was so scared I will have to eat maggi everyday, but lunch was good too. They cook corn in stew, and it tastes very Chinesy, and I love to have it with plain white rice.

Our seniors have not come back from their holidays(self-declared^^) but they definitely set the standards high and left big shoes for us to fill in. Three of them passed their first year with distinction (a very big thing here) and I was hoping to just being able to pass, as the passing mark is 60. However, I refused to give myself unnecessary pressure. I will try my best, but I can’t guarantee~

Classes will start next Monday, and we are already one week behind, oops.

That’s about it. Check-out. (juniors~) 5th August 2010

What Do I Know Of Holy?

2010-08-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

They cant't take away yesterday

2010-07-14T04:07:00.001+08:00

2010-07-10T00:45:00.002+08:00

To some, it's just another morning breeze;

But I know, it's You embracing me.

To some, it's just the clouds moved by the wind;

But when I look up, I see You smiling at me.

How wonderful it is, to be loved by LOVE itself.

1st John 4:8 God is love

Posters~

2010-07-08T17:19:00.003+08:00

My Work

After Modification

Three months from now.

2010-07-07T16:41:00.006+08:00

#July

I will be spending 1st half of July in Subang. The 2nd half of July I will get my last dose of Hepatitis B vaccination and have my bags packed. I will emo a bit at home and re-read my collection of books at least once. ( Lord of the Rings included). I want to Re-follow Malaysian Politic soap opera and cut myself off all internet connections to refocus my life. No more twitter and no more facebook till I find my way back my anatomy books.

I will feed myself with good authentic malaysia food and mummy's cooking. I will do as much study of the bible as possible to guard myself from any possible cultish influence^^. I will prepare myself to prepare a way for my future KIMS junior. (juniors, pray hard you get KIMS^^). I will enjoy every moment in Penang,(congratulations Penang! for the 2nd Adnniversary of official recognition as UNESCO heritage site). I will take in the Penang air, and love it.

#August

The fourth day of August will mark the new chapter of my life -- university life/medical school life. And it will be my first flight experience! I can't wait to be up in the air.
I will reach my university where I will be for the next 66 months. For the first part of August I will be busy adapting myself to Karad and Indian food. I will be trying to make my life as awesome as possible. I will try to get to know a lot of people and locate an excellent church to go to. And most probably I will be cooking myself, cos by the end of the month I think I will be fed up with the food already. And who knows if God leads, we will be able to start a small CF or prayer group in KIMS and have lots of God-time together. I am going to register Campus Revo KIMs no matter what, because I am called to be a christian first before I am a doctor, and I should lead a revo lifestyle.

I will not live to make people like me, but I will HELP them to like me^^. Never compromise and hold on to my non-negotiables. I will be the light and the salt. Even if I am the last candle I will not blow myself out.

I will most probably have a good time with Sheih Nee, my new roomie^^, and will read a lot of books together. We will spend a lot of time having fun together and encouraging one another. I will take good care of my health and start running again^^.

#September
Most probably I will already have gotten use with my life in India and loving every bit of it. I will be watching Bollywood and have a good laugh with my local friends. I will get myself a guitar and maybe attend some lessons over there. I will read a lot of books and skyping my friends. I will be studying hard but study with the purpose of honoring God! I will not hesitate to help anyone I can and I will start serving in the local church where I belong to. I will not give myself any lazy lame excuses. I will strive in my studies and will give my best. We will all be loving India and I will most probably made a few trips to Pune. I will check out Karad^^.

By September I think I would be as Indian as my other friends. I will be able to communicate in Mahiti in simple sentences and I will share my faith to the hungry people around me. I will bring the love of Jesus to them! Campus Revo KIMS will be growing by now, and we will be faithfully interceding for our Campus, loving it till it loves Jesus back! i will be so much more mature and will be bearing the fruit of the spirit. I will focus on whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.(Phillipians 4:8). I will run the race!

And by September I will be settled down. I will have India in my blood. I will love it. And most of all, I will begin to understand, that my God is still God, in India as real as He is in Malaysia.
One day I will be proud that I am a doctor, made in India.

Preparing for India

2010-07-07T12:22:00.004+08:00

India.
4th August 2010.
MH 192
2210 ETD 2330 ETA
KLIA - Bangalore (25 people)
5th August
Bangalore - Pune (9 people)

Preparations:
#1: I haven't prepare yet

LOL.

I am going back to Penang next Wednesday (14th July), getting my Hepatitis B last jab (21st July) and then spend a week feeding myself physically with every Malaysian food that I might miss in India. And then I am going to pack my clothes and try to bring as few books with me as possible. (I can't bear the thought of being separated with my books~)

I am really not prepared at all, just mentally very excited, because this is going to be my

FIRST FLIGHT~!

I have never been on an aeroplane before, and this is going to be my first!

And I am really excited about this country where people start dancing and singing along the streets out of a sudden (Bollywood~), and I just hope that my university will not be infested with purposeless nerds. Come on, let us be nerds with a purpose!!

I feel very challenged that day when Pastor Kenneth spoke to me, about starting a small group and then eventually growing into a cell group and then church!! Excited about that prospect but it is going to be my Mount Kinabalu! But all things are possioble to those who believe.

Whatever it is, it is going to be an exciting journey ahead and I need to prepare myself and armed myself and equipped myself with the full armor of god!

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints,

—Ephesians 6:10-18

God is on the move, we are breaking through!

Parents

2010-07-03T00:44:00.003+08:00

The definition of parents:

No matter how you screwed up, they will help you screw down at any cost.

Parents are angels, in training.

I dedicate this to myself, and you, girl!!

2010-06-28T01:37:00.000+08:00

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

[Chorus]
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

[chorus]

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
[chorus]

Identity Struggle

2010-06-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

All I want is more and more of You.

Gotta learn that

2010-06-27T00:47:00.002+08:00

Brad Pitt No.2

2010-06-23T22:47:00.003+08:00

Joel's comment on my first picture: 60%
"if you stop here, you will think this is the best you can do, why don't you try again?"
And here is my second attempt:

JOY knows what is J.O.Y

2010-06-23T13:16:00.001+08:00

NILAI: Goodbye, see you in Heaven.Joy Wee clung to her faith that her grandmother, father and three siblings are now in a better place as she put on a brave front when the five were laid to rest at the Nilai Memorial Park here yesterday.

The five – Roland Wee Seng Hock, 53; his children Joash, 23, Jacinth, 18, and Jelyn, 15; and his mother-in-law Lim Kim Boon, 79, died when their multi-purpose vehicle collided with an oncoming trailer which was overtaking another vehicle at the Kuantan-Segamat road last Thursday.

Wee’s wife, Chew Chin Loi, 54, and their two other children, Jemima, 17, and Josiah, 13, remain warded at a hospital in Kuantan.

Last rites: Relatives and friends of Wee mourning the loss of the five family members at the Nilai memorial park where they were buried yesterday.

Joy, the oldest child, had flown in from the United Kingdom. At the memorial park, the 26-year-old was seen comforting the others despite her own grief.

Scores of family and friends came from across the country and overseas to say their final goodbyes to the five, and many cried.

Wee’s father was seen weeping openly. Lim was buried first followed by Wee and his three children. The four were buried side by side.

As the coffins were lowered, Joy was seen gently touching the displayed pictures of her loved ones as she said her final goodbye.

“My mum also thanks God for loaning my father to her for 29 years, as well as for loaning Joash, (23 years), Jacinth (18 years) and Jelyn (15 years).

“I believe one day when we get to Heaven, they will be there welcoming us,” Joy said.

Joy comforting her grandfather. — AZHAR MAHFOF /The Star

Speaking to reporters later, Joy said she was very proud of her loved ones. She described her grandmother Lim as someone she respected and loved a lot.

On Wee, a senior principal assistant at a Muar secondary school, Joy said her father had touched so many lives – and wished that she could one day be a role model like him.

Joash was a good musician who loved football and tennis, as well as served God with all his heart.

As for Jacinth, Joy said she was a very hardworking person with a big heart who “would not hesitate to buy presents for all of us.”

“I am glad she found out about her Public Service Department pharmacy scholarship before she left,” said Joy.

On youngest sister Jelyn, Joy said both had shared a very close relationship.

Joy, who was supposed to take an exam this Friday in the UK to qualify as a pharmacist, said she would stay back to be with her mother and two siblings.

“My mum is very strong. She taught me to be strong, otherwise I would break down,” she said solemnly.

My first assignment

2010-06-23T00:14:00.004+08:00

My first attempt of drawing Brad Pitt, from the original Picture:

Joel Loi said I did 60% and I have to draw another one. he said if I stop here, I will think that is the best I can do, but I can actually do more. So, I am drawing another one again.

I am glad to be able to learn from Joel Loi, who was the best student in Lim Kok Wing^^. Awesome!
PS: After 3 years, it is so good to go back to drawing again!!^^

Adobe Photoshop CS4

2010-06-21T19:19:00.003+08:00

When God knows better

2010-06-21T11:21:00.002+08:00

Everytime I read whatever you wrote, my heart sinks, because it speaks to me, but I know it is not meant for me.

But I know God knows better.
YOUR thoughts are higher than, Your ways are higher than mine.

I know you are so far ahead in this journey of faith. Don't slow down , don't wait.
I need to run and focus on the race. If God is willing, we will meet again along the path to His throne one day. If not, I shall run with a smile, knowing that He has the best for you, and me, mine.

Thank you for being such an inspiration to me. Thank you for the way you love God and people, the way you serve^^. I will learn from that spirit and cherish the little friendship we shared^^.
if we don't get to meet again on earth, I shall see you in heaven. *promise*

you have ONE LIFE. live it

2010-06-19T21:32:00.003+08:00

I was once a poet. Won awards and prizes.
When I go deeper with God, I find myself filled with too much joy. Too much, that it conceals all my inspiration. That is when I realised what I used to write are all based on my emotions.
Now I wanna pick up that which I have laid down again, with a new purpose and a new direction.

There are a few things I want to do, or to do again:
1.Write again. This time, with a new purpose and inspiration from above
2. Compose. I pray God, You will 'placed in me the song of heaven's melody'.
3. Think more, speak less.
4. Get some professional vocal training.
5. Piano. Piano. Piano. Non-negotiable.
6. Design/drawing. Since SPM I have never do any serious drawing again.
7. Talk intellectually with some intellectual people.
8. Sleep like there is no tomorrow.(Next 3 weeks time!!^^)
9. Read read read read read!
10. Listen to Joseph Prince's messages and be blessed.
11. Watch a good movie and cry.
12. Be snobbish and arrogant when nobody is around. (lol)
13. Eat like there is no such a word like 'fat' or 'unhealthy' or 'indigestion'
14. Give up something really dear to my heart and surrender it to God.
15. Be patience and learn to forgive, not forget.
16. Be with my family more before I leave.
17. Appreciate my friends, like they might die tomorrow.
18. Stop showing faces. SMILE at all times!
19. Be just who you are, if they want to judge you, tell them: Take it or Leave it. (lol)
20. Bring more people to church^^.

Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.

Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you your heart's desire.

All things happen for good to those who love God, who were called according to his purposes.

I want to honor God. When I am weak, then I am strong.

BTN

2010-06-19T17:51:00.002+08:00

The notorious stage where the country's most brilliant minds are being brain-washed and fed with the governing party's propaganda.
The famous Sharon pose, which will be inscribed in out hearts forever~
An attempt to imitate Girl's Generation, I think we failed the imitation part, but we are more awesome!
This is the dining hall.
Girls~!
On our KEMBARA, Follow-me trekking
We were the first to arrive~
Housemates!! I miss them~
The mud will sink, trust me~and there are Gold Mines everywhere--cow dung
SWAMP!! I have to throw away my shoes. We were forced to wade through the mangroove swamp. The water smells worse than any dung, and the moral of the lesson, when you stay stagnant, you STINK!!

The trainer commented -- aiyo, ah moi ini pandai jerit.

Of course, stuff my leg into water that has been there since the last millenium and not showing a trace of emotion and disgust? Unless I have a flu...

Overall, it was an exciting experience, as we all did something we will never do^^. But the teaching part was quite awful. I went to the camp loving my country and I came out of the camp wondering whether my country loves me. Scholarship, oh yes, I have got a scholarship. Beyond that, I can't see anything.

Pray for Malaysia!

PS: The camp site suppose to be a camera and handsets free compound. And yes, we took pictures, and oh yes, we tweet, and we tweet, and we tweet...

2010-06-19T17:22:00.002+08:00

A shot by Kenny ACTSposure during Re:Union. Awesome!

In rememberance of Joash Wee

2010-06-19T15:43:00.002+08:00

I just came back from the memorial service of Joash Wee.
In case you don't know the name, he is one of the victims who recently called to be with the Lrd in a car accident that took away 5 lives.

I do not know him personally, but I was just there as a support to some of our church campus students who studied in Taylor's college.
As was sitting there listening to different people went up to give their eulogies, I am very touched by this life that I have never had the privilege to meet before.

I was wondering even there in my seat, what would my friends say about me when I am gone? what legacy have I leave behind?

After the 3-hour long service, there is one thing I know for sure, I will NOT, NEVER live my life the same again.
Thank you Joash Wee, for the inspiration you have given not only to me, but to so many people in that room this morning. You had ran the race, you fought the fight, you kept the faith. If you read this, do send my regards to JESUS, tell Him I love him, very much, though He already knew^^.

I want to live to love God and to love people, I am proud to have a brother-in-Christ like you.
Have fun!^^

SJ2 Another HOMEs

2010-06-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

Wohoo! We just finished another HOMEs at USJ 11, which is the place I am staying and Ellie taught us great and awesome stuff and shared her life and her conviction! Go Ellie!!

Charles played the guitar today and I feel really encouraged by his heart playing, even though he may not be the best guitarist but~ he plays to the one and single audience -- GOD!

I have fun playing with jon's DSLR^^ and crazily taking pictures, hopefully it would be up in facebook soon.^^

The one thing I have learned today: There is something that I really need to do but I teasure that something too much to do it. God gives me strength and give me courage to do it!
I want to seek You and Your kingdom first! (Thanks Ellie for the timely reminder)

And I have learned a powerful lesson today: Don't ever mess around with facebook applications! They will either spam you or spam your friends!

After a long week, today is finally the beginning of the end of the week! I wrapped Father's Day presents today for the father's in church(a token from ACTS) and I really feel so ashamed I can't even be with my dad, and just last week, I forgot my mum's birthday until the next day.I must really reflect how I am spending my time and setting my priorities! Forgive me, daddy and mummy~!

Wanna maybe watched a movie and then off to sleep. Good night!

Nilai HOMEs

2010-06-18T00:30:00.002+08:00

I just came back fro HOMEs (which is known as Cell groups or home groups in other churches) and we really had a fun time fellowshiping and learning God's word together.
I played the guitar while Lazarus, our Zimbabwean brother led worship for the first time(awesome!!)

I am very encouraged by the fact that Nilai UC and INTI college had already started their very first Campus Revolution group meeting after RE:UNION, go to www.urtherevolution.com! So altogether we have 3 CR groups in Nilai now, including the currently 11month-old KTT CR!! Praise the Good God!!

This is a very special HOMEs as we had it in the mamak downstairs instead of the Hub(a place where the church rented for Campus ministry purposes). This is due to an unexpected fogging operation that was going on in that block as someone got dengue fever. So we have to move all the food and materials to Bistro Palma(it is nothing like the real bistro), and we broke ointo three groups discussing these topics:

What are some areas in your life that you feel God is pruning?
How's our fruit bearing?

Are we willing to serve in a local church with our time and talent?
Do we give encouragements or complaints to the poeple around us?
Do we obey on our giving or do we hold back?

Samantha, Jane and I were in the same small group and I learned a lot from the two of them who are already YWAs^^. Samantha shared about how she was challenged to exchange her promotion for inviting her boss to church, and I was so woooofed by her courage and her testimony!! jane shared how she stood up and refused to be part of the gossip group in her office which also encouraged me a lot. These women are like what the bible said they should be -- example to the young women who are looking for awesome role models.

We also had our first VIP class today, which is none other than attraction to the altar. I think i have grew tired of wrestling with God and my own emoitons, I am goning to let it all go, and let the Spirit has his way. Pastor Sandra as usual addressed the topic withholding nothing and we were all blessed and caught something.

This is a small little tip from Pastor Sandra on what to look out for before starting a relationship:

Not to be UNEQUALLY yoke! In other words, to be a christian is a must!
Even if he/she is a christian, does he/she has his/her own faith? or is his/her faith based on his/her parent?
VISION - What ministry do you serve in? How can you build God's house together?
IDENTITY and value - don't lose yourself just because you got into a realtionship!
Value yourself and bring the best out of each other
PURITY - not to take advantage of each other
LEGACY- live one and leave one!
HEALTH - God forgives our past but there will be consequences

Pray hard! If we can pray for a scholarship, a job, an interview, how much more should we pray for our life-long companion?
I am still 20 this year, there will be another good 5 or 6 years before I consider a realtionship, so till then, i will invest my time in praying and building up myself. I remember reading this on someone's fridge magnet: A wonderful marriage is not about finding the right person, it is about being the right person.

So off we go, on our way to being the man or woman after God's heart. and as we run faithfully in this race, the time will come where we notice who are the ones running alongside us and pressing on with us.
PS: May we meet again on our way to the throne of the Almighty, but let His will be done, for His thoughts are higher than, His ways are higher than mine. And the plans He has for me are good, to give me a hope and a future. Amen.

A quick update

2010-06-17T13:00:00.002+08:00

Yay yay, I am updating now in AYA office, aka our church office^^ during lucnh hour.
I just put in what I have written yesterday and maye just a little bit more.

I am writing in the car now, going to Canaan land after work because Felicia needs to get a ‘lighter’ bible^^.
We had a debriefing on Re:Union today, and mind you, it’s really an eye-opener. Pastor clearly lined out the problems we had in different departments, and suggestions/solutions. Everybody is taking the whole meeting seriously, but without taking any offense. I really marveled at the spirit that had been shown by the AYA staff.

Re:Union
I was challenged by God in many different ways during Re:Union.
1. I learned how to take applause and give ALL glory to God.
While people were fascinated by the different stories that has been shared, I have many people coming up to me to tell me how encouraged they are by what God is doing in my campus(ex). I am reminded again and again that it is all about God. While I must not shy away from the spotlights, I must also keep my heart in check that I am sharing all this to encourage people and to give all glory to His name.

2. I learned to do small things as though they are great things^^.
I am thankful to be given this opportunity to serve in the team, and I am in the Revo Store team. Though the sales amount might not be as good as expected and though there are still a lot of room for improvement, I really enjoy working with fun-loving people like Ashley, Beverly, Tracy etc. Vincent Lim taught me one thing that I think I must remember for a life time-- don't ever think tht your hands are to save people and are too holy to do 'dirty' jobs.
A lot of times, success and recognition will carry people away to the extent that they might forget who they really are. As Faith Daniel Sunday put it in his book, humility is about not thinking or esteeming oneself more highly than who she/he really is. We all know deep down in our hearts how wretched we are inside and how much we need the grace of God. Thus, always embrace a servant's heart, always ready to serve.

3. I have learned to be honest to God
I told God He can just take me as I am, use me as He can. I am not a perfect person, never near but getting closer each day(Praise God), I still need to bear fruit, be stretched to my limits and a lot more, but I know by His grace I will go through this season of testing, moulding and shaping and I shall become a complete and secure individual.

The matter of the heart is the heart of the matter.
Ask God to examine my heart daily, correct is, cleanse it and mould it.

Yeah, that's about the Part 1 of Re:Union.
Getting back to work, Tada!

Radical Worship

2010-06-15T11:44:00.003+08:00

Radical worship does not equal to rock, nor contemporary.
Radical worship is to worship the ONE true God.
Radical worship is to give your best, even though you think you will look stupid.
Radical worship is to mean every word you sing.

Show Up. Stand Up. Speak Up

2010-06-15T10:16:00.002+08:00

False Evidence that Appears Real

2010-06-15T08:27:00.004+08:00

Dear Ms Sue Ting,

Sorry for the late reply your email.

1) Since u're being handled by Nugrahan agent, they didn't get any info yet about the admission to the university. So, thats why i cant tell the students the exact date to fly yet. But, the plan is the first week of August. I'll tell Dhanaraj, who will spread the message to others by next week, 21st June 2010.

Thank you.

Regards,

Tengku Farah Nadiana Binti Tengku Mahmood
Penolong Pengarah (Assistant Director)
Unit Latihan Sebelum Perkhidmatan Luar Negara II (Pre Service International Unit II)
Bahagian Pembangunan Modal Insan (Human Capital Development Division)
Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam Malaysia (Public Service Department Malaysia)

I am so afraid that I almost don't want to go.
I don't want to miss my family, miss my friend, miss my church leaders, miss church.
And I am scared I will lose my faith.

God, you are so so good.
There is just none like You.
You make me sing, out loud for joy,
Lord I am so grateful.

I don't know how to put down my thoughts in words.
I don't know how.
But everytime I went up the altar, I cried in fear that this would be the last time for many many years.
Everytime I see at you walking away, I cried in fear, that this would all end and end in God's will.

This is my prayer in the fire,
in weakness of trials or pain,
there is a faith prove of more worth than gold,
so refine me Lord through the flame.

If the Lord is good, He will lead me to another level of faith.
If the Lord is good, He will love me, no matter what I did yesterday.
If the Lord is good, He will not leave me, nor forsake me,
He will hear the deepest cry of my heart,
He will hold me in His hands,
He will make a way for me,
He will lift me up from the mud that He first found me in, again and again.

And yes, the Lord is good. All the time.

But once again, I said Amen, and it's still raining.

I talked to Pastoral Intern Sarah, I talked to Yvonne, I talked to Pastor Dave. And they give me W.O.Ws and W.O.Gs, I can't help but miss them even more.
These people listen to the spirit, and the Spirit speaks through them.

Whose voice are you listening to?
Don't limit God.
You do not have to live up to any expectations.
Don't let fear crippled you.
It is God who made you and He won't break you.

Though my heart is torn, I will praise You in this storm.

Will you miss me sometimes?

Dedicate this to all my friends who are leaving soon.

想起那天　原來是無雲無風
I remember that windless and cloudless day
但你抬頭　看著天說你想飛　晴朗天氣突然颳龍捲風
You looked up, and say you want to fly
the fair weather turns stormy

一剎那　全世界都在改變
in a split second, the whole world changed
回憶起我們倆快樂的從前　像一場夢
the memories we shared, feels like a dream

我的愛　你是片雲　不要害怕～
My love, you are like a piece of cloud, don't be afraid
去尋找　全新的自己
To discover a new self
海闊天空　無拘無束　新世界
A whole new world with no boundaries and no limitatons

＊也許你　就要遇到　雷雨閃電的暴風圈
Mabe, you are going to face a thunderstorm
　也許　就要遇到　烏雲密佈　灰色陰天
Maybe a gloomy day
　凍的像冰霜　北國下雪天　停下腳步　想想我
Maybe a hail storm or a blizzard
Just stop for a while, think of me.

＃也許你　就要遇到　淚流不止的風沙天
Maybe you are caught in a sandstorm that makes your tears flow
　也許以後　天氣預報　不會再有晴天
Maybe the weather report will never forecast a sunny day again
　也許到最後　終點是藍天
Maybe your destination is the azure sky

46, USJ11/4E

2010-06-10T00:00:00.003+08:00

Adventure

2010-06-09T23:49:00.002+08:00

And so Felicia and I thought we would be able to recognise the road back home.
By faith, she drove the car. And the moment when she started the car engine, our adventure begins.

First, it was at the car park paying booth.
We were busy fumbling for the car park ticket and Felicia forgot to STEP ON THE BRAKE!! and the car inched foward until she realised it. By that time, we were a hair's breadth away from the Nissan in front.

Then, we thought we would be able to find our way home with the map provided. However, we spent 30 minutes U-turning around the same areas, and asked at least 5 different guards at 5 different guard houses in USJ 11 alone, arrrgh.
Finally, we reached the padang we all thought we are familiar with, but, couldn't find anything either, and so we turn back, just to find out 5 minutes later that we were home. Lol.

And we took 40 minutes to reach home, which is 10 minutes drive away from church.
Plus, driving at night with only two girls in the car. We kept on calling upon the name of the Lord all the way back home.
Bravo.

ThRee

2010-06-09T17:30:00.003+08:00

I am blogging in AYA now^^.
Working hour has passed but nobody, really, not a single soul shows a sign of leaving.
Basically I have finished my job, but I am waiting for further instructions. This is the last lap before we march victoriously into Re:Union.

Thanks to Vincent, I have this little intel inspiron to call my own, though just for one month.

Church office is like heaven compare to my previous kindergarten job.
I am working at the ground floor nowadays, handling all the Revo Store stuff.
Revo Store is the store owned by ACTS Church, we don't just sell t-shirts and and badges, we give hope and warmth^^.
I have been working with my hands these few days, without exercising my brain, not yet.

After these Revo period, we will have 2 days leave on Monday and Tuesday! Praise the Lord!
I am loving it!

Lord prepare our hearts for Re:union!!

It's the start of something new:-D

2010-06-07T23:13:00.004+08:00

Today is my first day of working as a VIP. I am so glad that the Lord has led me thus far and has given me awesome powsome parents that support me all the way!

The work today is not actually that much, though it is slightly brain racking(most probably because we had never use our brain properly for the past 6 months). We had been packing the campus files, sorting and labeling receipts and tally it with our database, practising Cantonese with Vincent Lim(another YWA intern), and packing some disposable cutleries;-D.

I really learnt a lot form just observing the way people work, for example Pastoral Intern Sarah Fong who walked in and out more than 10 times just to answer all our queries about some strange receipts, with patience and a smile on her face. I am like, wow, if it's me, I would have exploded like, XYZG&%OD6879j;zsl...lol

h will be Elder Shirley! So happy to be able to work under her, and also Joel Loi, who leads the graphic design ministry. Hopefully by the end of this month, I would even be able to start designing cool things like all my revo t-shirts^^, Yeah!

I haven't been blogging actively because there was nothing interesting in my life. BTN was a mess, I just don't want to talk about it unless I can do something to change it. I have been reading 'Personal Leadership' by Faith Daniel Sunday, which inspires me a lot, and gave me a lot of food for thought. My key resolutions are:
1. Stop complaining, I can definitely do something to change it for the better, and that would be so much more useful than just complain.
2. I will only promise what I can deliver and stay honest, even when it is hard.
3. Stand up for what is right, no matter how heavy the pressure is. ( I should have known that before BTN, lol)

In office, we practice care and grace. Which means we must be careful with everything we do and care about the things we do but even when there are mistakes, there will be grace. Awesome.
Our floor is complete even with a pantry, awesome^^.

Yeah, life is good here in Subang, though very hectic especially with revo conference coming up so soon. I am so honored to be able to be a part of this nationwide movement! And within this minth I will prepare myself so that I will be able to Rock on THE ROCK even there in India! Amen!

PS: I do miss home, but no pain, no gain...Daddy mummy, I am still your little girl=')

PPS: to my friends out there, hope you guys will use this 6 weeks to add value to yourself too!! May the Lord be with you as He is with me!

In a Nutshell

2010-05-30T23:28:00.004+08:00

Here are some random updates before I head off to BTN for five days, without handphones let alone internet connection^^.

1. I can't imagine this is happening.

At first I am in ACTSpresso, our church hospitality ministry. Then my area of service extends to MTG,our message-to-go counter, where people order the day's sermon. And today, I am also serving in MTFG, our Mandarin Translation group. I have been leading worship in HOMES with my faithful companion, Justin (my Hofma guitar) for the past 1++year and now, I am going to move on to the most ACTSciting ACTSperience I will ever have--serving in Lightbulb Productions,our church performing ministry. In other words, I will learn how to glorify God, even through dancing. I love the vision of Lightbulb Productions which says:

Dance to EXPRESS, not to impress!

I actually dreaded dancing. The few dancing experience that I have had in my schooling days devastated me. I am not a very wonderfully coordinated person, and I cannot move my body like a snake or Lady Gaga(whatever). And out there in the world, the stage is very cruel. Either you impress the audience or else you fail. And of course, I always fail, badly.

But now,God opens a door for me to learn how to dance to His glory! Amen!

2. I will be a one-month YWA--Young Working Adult

I graduated proudly from Kay Tee Tea! I am not a college student anymore,not yet a university student. And I will be working in AYA office for one month!

Yeah,I will blog more about it once I start in the coming week^^.

Okie, sorry to all juniors^^, but actually I feel very relieved leaving KTT behind, though the memories I have here is one of the best in my life. I have fought the fight,I have finished the race and I have kept the faith! I really thank God for all the opportunities of experiencing different stuff, not just in church, but also in college.

After my graduation ceremony, the Assistant Director of KTT actually shook my hand and wish me good luck and all the best in my future endeavors. I am so honored to be honor in such a way. He is by far the best lecturer, in student's opinion and I am not even his student but yet he notices me. Praise God for such favor!!^^

3. I am gaining weight.

Okie, it's kind of weird. I always manage to gain weight when I am away from home.Maybe due to excessive and unnecessary snacks and just extravagant spending on FOOD. The four letter word that lits up the light in my eyes...

Penang food is still best, maybe thats why I have to eat so much in Nilai to make up for the quality^^.

4. BTN tomorrow

Surprisingly a lot of people do not know about BTN. BTN stands for Biro TataNegara. It is a camp where scholars are taught to be more patriotic^^and to represent the country in foreign lands,among people who speaks in an unknown language.

I heard this camp is going to be very tough as your values and your faith will be challenged. I am not someone who like to pick up a fight, but I won't compromise either. Daniel in the Bible did crazier things. If God can deliver him from the lions' den, He can definitely deliver me from all my troubles too. ^^

5.VIP

After BTN, I will start VIP straight away^^. Can't wait to blog more about it soon^^. Yay!

Till then. Cheerio.

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2010-05-28T09:11:00.001+08:00

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Graduation KI 2010

2010-05-28T03:18:00.003+08:00

Again,thanks to all the wonderful people who borrowed the saree, tied it and do my hair for me.

Thanks to Kei Shing, Jane and Parvina!

Slow Fade - Casting Crowns

2010-05-25T13:39:00.001+08:00

Be careful little eyes what you see
It's the second glance that ties your hands as darkness pulls the strings
Be careful little feet where you go
For it's the little feet behind you that are sure to follow

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

Be careful little ears what you hear
When flattery leads to compromise, the end is always near
Be careful little lips what you say
For empty words and promises lead broken hearts astray

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

The journey from your mind to your hands
Is shorter than you're thinking
Be careful if you think you stand
You just might be sinking

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Oh be careful little eyes what see
Oh be careful little eyes what you see
For the Father up above is looking down in love
Oh be careful little eyes what you see

2010-05-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

Careless, I am reckless
I'm a wrong-way-travelin'-slowly-unraveling shell of a man
Burnt out, I'm so numb now
That the fire's just an ember way down in the corner of my cold, cold heart

Lord, this time I'll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Here at the altar, oh my world so black and white
How could I ever falter
What You've shown me to be right

Lord, this time I'll make it right, here at the altar I lay my life
Your kingdom come but my will was done, my heart is broken as I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me
Jesus, I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard
Just let You be who You are
Lord, who You are in me

Oh, Lord I...

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Cry, like so many times before
But my eyes are dry before I leave the floor, oh Lord
I try but this time, Jesus, how can I be sure I will not lose my follow through
Between the altar and the door

Intellectual Post

2010-05-24T21:17:00.001+08:00

Thought I want to get intellectual this time. But ya, the thought stopped after I typed the title.

I am sick of being just myself.

*sigh*

I want to be more than I can be.

Today

2010-05-19T21:48:00.004+08:00

I have three times of fainting experience.

Once, during an open air concert.

Second time, when I have my measles fever.

And the third time, this evening, due to some reasons unknown.

PS: I slept for 7 hours the night before, but ya, i skipped breakfast, and decided to have light lunch because apparently I am not spending wisely, again =(. I have a long history of low blood pressure. Got rejected recently when I want to donate blood. Last record of BP 86/55.

I asked around, and very few friends have actually experienced fainting before.

This is how it's like.

When you faint, the world suddenly dims, and you can't see properly.

You cannot balance yourself and you have to hold on to something or someone.

And you sweat profusely.

I was actually going back to my apartment after my evening jog. I did 5 rounds superbly well and was heading towards my tangga.

One of my lecturer saw me and she talked to me about KI and all sorts of random stuff.

And then, I feel nauseous.

So, I lean on the wall, but the feeling did not seem to be going away.

I sensed something was really wrong, so I quickly excuse myself and scrambled up the stairway.

Thank God, my apartment is on the first floor.

I managed to open the door at the 2nd attempt and then I hurried in and lie on the floor, the fan spinning above me.

Room mates not in.

And I wonder if I close my eyes at that moment, will I ever be able to open them up again?

So often in life, we take things for granted.

If I were to die tomorrow, will I leave with no regrets?

Or do I wish I have said or did something? Or unsaid and undid something?

I thank God that I am still breathing. There are some things I need to do, I am called to do, but I haven't get it done.

Everytime I faint, I feel a little bit closer.

To You.

Unanswered Prayers

2010-05-17T01:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I praise God for the prayers that€ He did not answer.

Because there is always something better when He says no.

He knows better.

He knows my heart's desire, He knows my every need.

I really can't imagine what would my life be, if He say YES to my every childish request.

Thank God for being BIG.

My God's plan for me, goes beyond my wildest dreams^^

The Power of Tongue

2010-05-17T00:39:00.002+08:00

The tongue is a very powerful weapon.

It can bring life. And destruction.

When Jesus said if a part of body cause you to sin, cut it out and cast it into fire.

Every single time, I will definitely think of my tongue before anything else.

If I don't like singing, I might have already done that^^.

To sin with your tongue is not just limited to slander and gossips.

It is also the complaints, the grumbling and the criticism.

Speaking of a situation as if the dead-end is the end.

Quote Pastor Andy,

In the end it is going to be alright, if it is not going to be alright, it is not the end.

When people start talking bad about a lecturer, will I walk away or will I join in?

When people start comparing results and placement, will I be jealous or will I learn to love what God chose to bless me with?

When people say it is impossible, will I stand up and say through You I can do anything?

Quote Pastor Kenneth:

If you have nothing good to say, don't say anything.

This is my challenge! I shall pick it up and run!

I want to move along with God, if you don't, please move aside!

Tamil Night

2010-05-14T10:32:00.002+08:00

Thank you Jeeva, Thevasree and Dhanaraj, for the Lengga, bracelet and necklace.

This is what I wore on Tamil Night 2010. We had a fashion show and I get to wear this Princess-ish outfit, with elven-like selendang.

I feel like an Indian princess for a night^^.

3 weeks to VIP

2010-05-11T13:46:00.001+08:00

Reflection

2010-05-11T13:44:00.001+08:00

When will my reflection shows who I am inside?

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-11T13:25:00.003+08:00

Belated post. To my one and only mum!

This video is quite a disaster to me, but it's really for you.

*embarassed*

Thank You!

For being a great mum to us all, especially me, the naughtiest and the one who caused the most trouble and worries.

But now, you can take a rest, because I know God will take care of me. He will hold my right hand and lead me along the right path.

I promise you by the next mother's day I will learn how to spend more wisely, really^^.

Thank you for trusting me that I am doing my best. When you and daddy said you are proud of me and are very happy for my results, I always cryT_T*secret*

I never go back as often as er-jie not because I don't like being at home.

No matter how old I grow or who I will be, I know Home is always my haven, my sanctuary.

It's a place that reminds me of who I really am.

When I look into the mirror and the world teach me not to like what I see, I learn to love it, because I see daddy and you and grandma and grandpa.

I am proud to be who I am today. And I really cannot be who I am without you.

Everytime I breathe I thank God, everytime I look at myself and everything I have I thank God.

For you.

Everytime I remember you, I remember somebody once told me that mothers are angels in training.

Happy Mother's Day.

Aragorn

2010-05-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

The title says it all.

*to me*

Random updates

2010-05-03T15:28:00.002+08:00

Hindi night this Wednesday. I am doing TOXIC-Britney spears(Daniel, you are so nice to me). Nothing too much, just have to act very *ewe...* and if someone *vomits...* I am qualified for an Oscar. Re-depicting a movie, KTT-nised.
Exam is supposed to be on Friday. But our HOPs leave the college just like that *snap*.
Listening to Queenie's I-pod nano, and I marveled at the balance of her bank account. *envy*
Should I pray that God will send me a Mac book pro? Maybe I should, because if He doesn't give me that, maybe I will still have a mac book air *dream...* Okie, I don't really care *bleeding inside*, I survived two years without a laptop and all my assignments are typed and printed=world class. All things are possible. When there's a will, there's a way. *cliche*
Got 17.6 out of 20 for anatomy. Why? I thought I could get 19.9?! *too much* But got full marks for both assignments.
Justin is a wonderful companion. Can't bear parting with him in two months time. His resonance is near to perfect and whenever I strum, I fell in love with him again. Yamaha or not is not important anymore. Thanks to the 28 wonderful people for my 19th birthday present. Em, so where's my 20th one? *sheepish smile*
I want food! Real food, not this expensive, overrated cafe food! They never change their menu in 20 years...*exagerrating* okie, 2.0 years... Mum's cooking...*tears welling up in both eyes*
If I can learn 3 Indian languages in 3 months I can learn Korean, Japanese and and Russian in 3 months! =P or Spanish, German and Italian.
Why am I blogging so retarded-ly... I haven't read my bible today. *guilty* I got a new NLT Life application study bible from my ACTS Church Nilai Core Team and Campus Pastor. Yippee... sign off. * turning the pages with a 'senyuman yang bahagia'...*

It's good to be Home

2010-05-03T15:19:00.002+08:00

Spent my saturday at Home.
Home is good.
Eat sleep eat sleep eat sleep

See now, I can't even blog in proper English^^.

Yeah.

PS: Brought Justin back. Can't imagine getting another guitar...

More Pictures....

2010-04-26T10:08:00.002+08:00

Random pictures I steal from my future seniors' facebook=)

Gym in nursing hostel, for girls only^^

Waterfall in Pune, the nearest town to Karad

International Students' Hostel

The notice at train station...

On the train (First-class )

Busy streets of Pune

Night view of Pune

KIMSU

One of the building

Interior view

Lecture Hall

Corridors

Anatomy museum

Courtyard

Sunshine and Rain

2010-04-26T09:55:00.004+08:00

We watched this movie "3 Idiots" as part of our Hindi lesson and EVERYone loves it.

Guess what, these are my future seniors from KIMSU sitting on the same 'bangku'...

Saari umar hum
Mar mar ke jee liye
Ek pal to ab humein jeene do
Jeene do

Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Kandhon ko kitabon
Ke bojh ne jhukaya
Rishvat dena to khud
Papa ne sikhaya
99% marks laaoge to ghadi, varna chhadi

Likh likh kar pada hatheli par
Alpha, beta, gamma ka chaala
Concentrated H2SO4 ne poora
Poora bachpan jalaa daala

Bachpan to gaya
Jawani bhi gayi
Ek pal to ab humein
Jeene do jeene do

Saari umar hum
Mar mar ke jee liye
Ek pal to ab humein jeene do
Jeene do

Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….

Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again

Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….
Na na na….Na na na….Na na na….Na na nana na….

Learning and Growing

2010-04-25T20:00:00.002+08:00

Growing up is painful but necessary.

God does not need me, but He loves to have me involved, He loves to have me around=).

Will update soon on Revo Penang=). Awesome Acts-perience serving along with different people and encouraged by different lives and awesome things God has been doing through Penang youths.

I am so proud to call myself a Penangite!!

Cheerio.

Why Am I Blogging

2010-04-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

People who care about me will read my blog and has a glimpse into the depths of my heart.

So that the little little things that I caught will be able to inspire and bless my readers=).

And I have a place to channel my thoughts, doubts, worries, anger, bitterness and let it go^^.

If I wrote something on my blog that might offend you or might make you feel that I am a childish impudent brat, sorry, it's just me...

Take it or leave it.

Touched...

2010-04-18T20:56:00.003+08:00

The Lord has been so GOOD to KTT.
In less than 24 months we have seen lives after lives given to Jesus Christ.
Ian Bong, Beh Jun Hwa, Christine Tan, Chai Siew Yap, Felicia Tee, Parvina.

I myself has given my live to Him (rededicated) when I am in KTT, Praise God!

Testimonies and testimonies have been flowing through this little college in the middle of nowhere.
And we are all glad that He deemed us worthy to be used for His purpose and His cause.
Life is so exciting over here in KTT!! And we are expecting more and more of what God can do in and through us!
Praise the Lord! Amen!

Yeah.....

2010-04-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

I have a new sister in CHRIST!!
Welcome to this big family Felicia!!
We are so blessed to be able to embark on this journey of faith and growing with you!

Yeah! Through You I can do anything,I can do all things!!
Cause it's You who gave me strength,nothing is impossible!!

Praise the Lord!

Stupid WisdomTooth

2010-04-17T20:17:00.001+08:00

I am not exaggerating!
It hurts like crazy...my right cheek is swollen and my gum and my cheek wall are fused together at the back of my mouth...

God, heal me...

I survived a Saturday alone in 8-1-a2

2010-04-17T19:19:00.002+08:00

The disadvantage of having all of your housemates from Melaka is you will seriously lack human company during weekends.
It has been a long time since I have spent my weekends alone in my apartment.
To a person without a laptop(Can't believe that from the frequency I blog, right=P) and without anything to study, KTT is as dead as a grave yard on a Saturday after exam.
My best friend went out with her most probably boy-friend-to-be and a few other guys toKL PC fair and is kind enough to message me that she spent over rm1000 d, guess she finally got the I-pod that she wanted so badly.
*Envy*. Period.
I have to save money, because I need to survive one month in Subang^^.
Even though I am provided with a place to stay, I don't have any allowance coming in for that month. and due to some unidentified reasons my savings have gone down to a certain figure that breaks my heart.
Imagine every rm4 you spent is earned from an hour of work in the kindergarten, and you will appreciate the money.

And now,I am stuck here.Thanks to my best friend who have enough conscience and guilt in hertopinjam me her small lappie.We are actually people from two worlds, and sometimes we both sit down and wonder why and how God pull us together.
I am a morning person, she is a nocturnal animal.
I don't like Jpop,she is a great fan of Jpop.
I am sensitive, she just doesn't seems to care.
But ya,no one can question the core and depth of our friendship^^. Thank you babe...lol

And I was assaulted in sleep last night...
By a girl whose maternal instincts has apparently kicked in.
She leaned over the little girl on bed and kissed her forehead.Oh God, I is so traumatise...lol
Thank you though, for that little sweet act.
And ya, I really don't mind switching off my bedroom light when I sleep,if someone do that for me. If you know me enough you will know that I read before I sleep, even till the very last second..Not that I don't care about having cancer or what...

SO I survived a Saturday in KTT.
Will be in Penang next weekend,but I am not sure whether I will be able to go home as I am part of the Revo Team.

After a whole day of drama and sleep, I need to eat again^^.
And then I will be waiting for them to come back from their little spree and listen to her ramblings on how much money she spent and how she regretted over it, lol.

Alone?

2010-04-15T23:17:00.003+08:00

Nowadays I am getting more and more anti-social.

Yea, I am preaching all these stuff about love and all but I really want to stay in a corner, just me and God.

Going to take a few days off from people.

There is no point hanging around with people when you feel all alone.

God give me the strength to love, as You have loved me despite of all my shortcomings.

Now I know why God sanctify Sabbath day.

Come to him the heavy laden, and He shall give you rest.

For His yoke is easy and his burden is light.

There must be something about people that even Jesus withdrew himself from them to pray at times.

This is just my time, a season for rest.

I am tired of being tired. Tired of trying.

Jesus, take the wheel...

I want to play like this!

2010-04-15T17:05:00.000+08:00

If there is No God

2010-04-14T20:48:00.005+08:00

If there is no God...

1. What is the purpose of life?

Life will be an endless cycle of reincarnation, and everyday we live under the threat of reincarnating to a lesser being because we just sinned even in thoughts?

2. Where does moral values come from?

Why are there right or wrong? Where does someone's conscience comes from? Why do we have a certain set of moral values that people all over the world from different civilisation agree on?

3. What will happen after we die?

Go to heaven or hell according to the deeds that we have done? Imagine standing in front of a scale, one side of the balance is the good things you have done, the other side the bad ones. And you stand there waiting for the balance to tip to the good side, and you shall spend eternity in heaven, if not, bye...see you in hell...

Or there is this mysterious dunno whatever it is that will decide whether you will be a king in your next life or an amoeba sp.

4. What is the solution to the world's problem?

More money? More food? Peace treaties?

Or LOVE?

Well, there is no point arguing actually. Because when one does not believe with his brain, but with his heart. You can read the Bible from cover to cover, yet don't know anything about it. Word kills.

I believe in Jesus. But why?

Because when I was in the darkest pit of life, He stretched forth His right hand and lift me up.

Because when I was desperate for hope, he offers me LIFE not of the next world, but ETERNAL LIFE that begins from the moment I accepted Him.

Because when I was in despair, when I want to give up my life, when I think that I will never be healed, never be made whole again,

incense, joss sticks, meditation, chanting and being a vegetarian did not help me.

Nor does any other theory or teachings(I have tried)

But the knowledge of a SAVIOUR KING

the knowledge of one person who offer up His life in my place and take away my sins, my shame, my pain,

the knowledge that I can have a SECOND CHANCE, or third or fourth or fifth chance...

the knowledge that I no longer have to be GOOD to receive GOOD

the knowledge that I am loved by my Creator, and am created in His own image.

I know that if there is NO GOD, there is no purpose of living.

According to what I have done, either I will end up in hell;

or I will be born as a clamydomonas or p. falciparum in my next life...

Thank God, I am your child=)

God

2010-04-14T17:32:00.005+08:00

As a Jesus Freak, I am blessed to still have a lot of non-believer friends. Sometimes they will ask me, why do I believe in God but they don’t and they still can carry on with their lives. From years of observation and personal back-slide experience, I identified a few common reasons why people are not compelled to believe in the One true, real, everlasting, loving God.

1. Some believe in the wrong ‘god’ or have the wrong concept of ‘god’

There are so many religions in the world, from Christianity, Islam, Buddhism, Taoism tocults like Mormonism etc.. Some people do believe in God, but a distorted version of Him. Some people worship fame. Some power, some money. Some people think they have to work very hard and do all the good things on earth to please God. Some people think God is so BIG and BUSY that He just does not seems to care. Some people think that science has eliminated all possibilities of the existence of God.

2. Some people don’t need God

When there is a demand there is a supply, economist tell us that. When you don’t need God in your life, why would you go and look for Him? Some one who does not want to dig a hole will not search frantically for a hoe. Our lives aren’t perfect. Everybody has their own set of problem. The difference is some people have too much ego in them to admit that they need God, and some people just don’t care much about live, and everything that is in it(God, included). Try go on with your life without God. You will feel happy but you have no joy. For joy comes from within and He alone is the joy-giver. You will be successful but you will have to try so hard to sustain the success. Pastor Kenneth of ACTS Church once said that in every human heart, there is a God-shaped hole. You can fill it with anything, but you will never fill it completely. Only God can fit into that shape!

3. Some people hate Christians that’s why they hate their God

Mahatma Gandhi had once said that the Jesus whom Christians believe in is beautiful, but Christians are ugly. I can’t help but agree. Christians are not saints. They are made perfect not by their own works but by the blood of the lamb. By Aslan, the lion who was slained in place of the traitor, the betrayer. By the king who will return. By the son, whom He is pleased with. I remember writing this prayer down in my journal:

Let them hate me because of Jesus, but never ever let them hate Jesus because of me.

Heavy is the burden of being the one who keep people away from Jesus.

No matter what is keeping you away from believing in Jesus Christ, I assure you, there are no other journey more fulfilling than the journey with Christ in your life. There is no other greater decision that you can make than the decision to receive Him into your heart.

If you are a Muslim, do you know that Jesus dying on the cross shedding His blood for you qualified him to pray for 70 of your family members? Do you know that Islam is prophesied in the bible to be a teaching that will lead many away? How can you live a victorious live when you are not sure whether your God loves you, whether your God will ‘get your back’?

If you are a Buddhist, let me ask you, how are you suppose to love and honor your parents when the real liberty is to have no feeling at all? How can you explain the world and it’s existence, it’s problem and it’s solution when you claim that there is no love, and love is the real solution to all problem?

I believe not because I know everything, but because I have tasted the goodness of God and I will never forget. Jesus said He is the Living Water, drink and you will never be thirsty again. He is the bread of Life, eat and you will never be hungry again. He is the Way, the Truth and the Life, no one can go to the Father except through Him!

Am I a fantic? Am I just too much?

I don’t really care if they label me a JESUS FREAK!

3 things to achieve before I go to India

2010-04-14T12:58:00.002+08:00

1. Gain weight until I reach optimum BMI

2. STOP SLEEPING IN CLASS!!

3. Get a twitter account.

Does Anybody Hear Her?

2010-04-14T10:53:00.002+08:00

I am glad that many years ago, somebody heard me...

In case you don't know, this can happen to real people, around you...

Random

2010-04-14T01:07:00.002+08:00

It's amazing.

I am naturally born a stalker, and I love stalking my stalker, lol.

(sounds like I am stuck in a vicious cycle)

Cycle, ya; vicious, not entirely.

Ever since I installed this FEEDJIT life traffic thingy on my blog, I have been able to see who came to my blog through whom's website and left my blog through whose blog.

It is really very interesting to see how people ended up reading your blog.

There is one particular google search that had me laughing.

(some places in United states) arriving at www.susulearnstoblog.blogspot.com via google.com searching for indian college going girl something something...

I mean which person with a sound mind in the states will go and search for a girl like that through google?? ( if that's you, please let me know^^)

And somebody searching for Carrie Underwood's lyrics ended up on my page.

Sooner people searching for Jesus Freak DC Talk will ended up on a Jesus Freak's blog too. (thumbs up)

There are also some searches like ACTS Church, susu 4(what's with that number 4??), susu and jesus etc etc.

I really hope that these people who ended up reading my blog will caught something from whatever crap I wrote, because God is going to use the lowly(poor english) and humble(erm....)

Do drop a word or two for me.

Especially if you are some stranger out there=).

Remember, I am a professional stalker, you better show up before I catch you, hahaha...

Jesus Freak

2010-04-11T20:23:00.001+08:00

[What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus Freak?
What will people do
When they find that's it's true?]
[oh oh]

Separated, I cut myself clean
From a past that comes back in my darkest of dreams
Been apprehended by a spiritual force
And a grace that replaced all the me I've divorced

I saw a man with tat on his big fat belly
It wriggled around like marmalade jelly
It took me a while to catch what it said
Cause I had to match the rhythm
Of his belly with my head
'Jesus Saves' is what it raved in a typical tattoo green
He stood on a box in the middle of the city
And he claimed he had a dream

(chorus)
What will people think
When they hear that I'm a Jesus freak
What will people do when they find that it's true
[oh oh]
I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak
There ain't no disguising the truth
[oh oh oh]
[ain't no disguising the truth, no I ain't hiding the truth]

Kamikaze, my death is a gain
I've been marked by my Maker
A peculiar display
The high and lofty, they see me as weak
Cause I won't live and die for the power they seek

There was a man from the desert with naps in his head
The sand that he walked was also his bed
The words that he spoke made the people assume
There wasn't too much left in the upper room
With scabs on his back and hair on his face
They thought he was strange by the locusts he ate
YOU SEE The Pharisees tripped when they heard him speak
Until the king took the head of this Jesus freak

chorus

People say I'm strange, does that make me a stranger
My best friend was born in a manger
People say I'm strange, does that make me a stranger
My best friend was born in a manger

Revolution Tour Nilai 2010

2010-04-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

I must really blog about this while the Spirit is fresh=).

Ya, I just came back from the ever awesome Revo Tour, Nilai stop.

The Revo PARTY(preaching about revolution through youth) is awesome.

Awesome time of worship and powerful word.

I will try to put down everything that I have caught for those who missed it=).

Well, radical worship is NORMAL in ACTS Church.

I came from a presbyterian background, where people sing hymns from the past centuries.

It is awesome, majestic and beautiful.

We have pews(rows and rows of benches) with a small hook in front of you where you can put your communion cup. And before I came to college, that is all I know about church.

When I first went to ACTS, it was already my 6th or 7th month in Nilai. I was elected into the CF committee. Knowing that I am not a strong christian and having gone through a period of really tough and difficult time of my life, I wanted to know God.

I wanted to be like the awesome seniors, shining for God.

And when people look at me, I want them to know that I am a Christian.

So I walked into church, not knowing that there is where I am going to be for the rest of my course, and if God is willing, for the rest of my life.

The worship team left me stunned and shocked. That was my first experience of WORSHIP.

And ya, back to Revo Nilai.

We sang You're the One, Just Believe, Lift you Higher, Have Your Way and Yesus Kupercaya.

I felt very convicted especially when we sang

Holy Spirit have your way

All of my hopes, my dreams, my days

I lay it all down again, devoted to do your will

I really lose count of the times where I want to have MY WAY.

But God reminded me, tonight, that He is the One who place dreams in people's heart.

He reminded me that often I asked for bread and half-expecting to get stones, ask for an egg and expecting a scorpion, when He has promised so much more!

I kind of always forget that God loves me, and if my father and mother know how to give me good things, how much more will He gave to me, if only I ask Him!!

And then we sang

Kau Tuhanku, tiada lagi kuingin, hatiku ini milikMu

Sahabatku, ku selamat dalam tanganMu

And I really want to meant it.

My heart belongs to Elohim, to Yahweh, to Jehovah.

I don't need anything else. I am safe in His care!

And this burden which I have been carrying lately just fell down from my shoulder.

And I know that in Him, the heavy laden shall find rest.

For His yoke is easy, His burden is light!

Then the WORD!

Pastor David spoke from the book of Daniel. Daniel was a campus student(woah!)

He shared 3 points with us:

1.Daniel 1:8-would not let himself be defiled by the King's food

2.Daniel 3:17-refuse to bow down to the golden image

3.Daniel 6:10-prayed despite being warned not to

Daniel and his 3 friends choose to stand up and they changed nations.

What is a college compared to that?

I feel so encouraged to continue standing up for what I believe in.

Going the extra mile even when it does not matter, because it DOES matter to God!

We don't need to fight for our rights, we don't have to exaggerate.

The LOVE of God is the solution to all problems.

Family problem? God can heal every broken relationship, through His amazing love.

Financial problem? God can provide.

Friendship or relationship? God can grant wisdom and discernment, and patience.

And so, here I am, I am happy to be in His arms again.

My whole heart belongs to Him, my whole life devoted to do His will.

We are all so blessed by REVO Nilai!

I can't wait to be a part of REVO Penang this coming 23rd-24th April!

My Promises to God:

He alone shall be the center of my life, my heart belongs to Him.
I will lay down my hopes, my dreams and my days at the feet of the cross.
I will never give less than my BEST.
I will NOT compromise!
I will never be ashamed of Jesus! I am proud to call myself a Christian!

Twenty

2010-04-10T09:45:00.004+08:00

I am 20, but

I blog like I am 18,

Childish, self-centered blog

I dress like I am 16,

Don't really care much UNTIL I have to...

I rebel like I am 14,

The world needs to change!!

I study like I am 12,

To be cool is to be nerdy!

I play like I am 10,

Can never beat the computer in any game...duh

I cry like I am 8

Booohooohooohooo

I skip like I am 6,

Bouncing around when I get animated

I eat like I am 4

I have a habit of holding a spoon like the kids you see on Coco crunch commercials

I sleep like I am 2,

Curled up into a ball

I belongs to my parents like I am a NEWBORN babe.

so sweet...

Random

2010-04-08T09:50:00.003+08:00

Imagine knowing human body parts in 8 languages and dialects...

Example,

Throat(English)

-गलाGala(Hindi)

-Tohndai(Tamil)

-Gantalu(Kannada)

-Kerongkong(Malay)

-喉咙(Mandarin)

-Naa au(Hokkien)

-Hao Long(Cantonese)

Being multilingual is not impossible, yeah.

But I am so tempted to skip the next class at 11am.

Queenie had once told me that she is not only multi-tasking, she is multi-lingualing.

She was listening to Japanese Pop, Writing kannada letters and Sms-ing in english at the same time.

The life of a scholar...

Always Positive!

2010-04-07T21:06:00.002+08:00

Being a girl, I find myself constantly being in a position of disadvantage.

Girls, naturally have a more sensitive heart.

I did something that she thought I shouldn't have done and she sort of got a bit mad at me.

From the way she said it.

And my whole day's mood will be ruined, totally.

Because she is a very important person to me.

Therefore, again and again, I have to remind myself that I might be too sensitive.

Maybe she does not mean what I thought she means.

No matter what, always be POSITIVE!

Random

2010-04-06T08:11:00.002+08:00

Yahoo! Finished my anatomy and physiology test already.

Physio was a mess really, but anatomy is awesome, I love anatomy!!

So, here I am. Too senang d...nothing much can do besides blogging in Manglish=).

Suppose to go make passport, but I don't have my old one with me.

Have to go another day.

Can't imagine I am leaving Malaysia so fast.

Sometimes I sit down alone and try to imagine my new life in India, I am kind of scared.

I don't know what kind of friends I will have there, I don't know whether I will be able to cope with the undoubtedly competitive environment.

I sometimes really wish I can just stay in Malaysia and do my MBBS here.

Well, in another few weeks time, I might not see these people that I see everyday again. Some for the rest of my life.

I now understand why once a friend of mine told me that before he leave, he does not want to leave any emotional baggage behind.

Thank you people-s...You made my life colourful.

4 months from now, we will be in KLIA, waving our last goodbye.

2 years ago, I was waiting for that day to come. 2 years later, I am hoping that it will never come.

I will miss everyone back here. But, please.

Don't tell me you will miss me, don't tell me you will be praying for me. Don't tell me 5.5 years will pass before I realise it already did. Don't tell me you love me and you always will be.

I will cry like a baby.

It's a Sin~To kill a Mockingbird

2010-04-04T12:14:00.003+08:00

My first black and white movie.

Read the book three times from cover to cover, and it always struck my heart every time I read it again.

And a movie that makes me cry, is ALWAYS a good movie.

A father's love. A lawyer's ethics. A coloured man fighting for equality.

But he said that sooner or later he supposed the temptation to go after birds would be too much, and that I could shoot all the blue jays I wanted, if I could hit 'em, but to remember it was a sin to kill a mockingbird. Well, I reckon because mockingbirds don't do anything but make music for us to enjoy. They don't eat people's gardens, don't nest in the corncribs. They don't do one thing but just sing their hearts out for us.~Atticus Finch

Even in Malaysia's modern settings, to what extent does the court represent justice?

Atticus was right. One time he said you never really know a man until you stand in his shoes and walk around in them. Just standing on the Radley porch was enough.~Jean Louise(Scout) Finch.

I guess I have to just stop trying to think that I know the people around me well.

Not before I climb inside of their skin and walk around in it.

Walk the walk, Talk the talk, Walk the Talk

2010-04-03T17:17:00.003+08:00

'Dhoodh knew about it that she brought me for a walk uphill to talk and pray with me. We called it ‘The Walk-the-Walk, Talk-the-Talk, Walk-the-Talk’ walk uphill. It was a great walk because not only we got to talk about our problems, we got to enjoy God’s amazing creations and pray together.'~Lynthia

That's what we have been doing for quite sometime. It's really cool. Waiting for Lynthia to post up our pictures=).

Yeah, a friendship in God is a friendship we will cherish for ever=).

I only have 2 months left with these precious people, and I really thank them for growing with me, since the first day we are in KTT. I cannot do all these without your support, guys. As much as you are proud of me, I am proud of having these awesome friends. We made KTT a better placce=).

Lynthia, though you are worrying about your placement, remember, it's settled in heaven=). Just wait for it to be revealed on earth^^. Love you!

Thank God it's GOOD FRIDAY

2010-04-02T06:22:00.001+08:00

Study 101

2010-04-01T17:40:00.007+08:00

First, put on earphone, play Casting Crown, Hillsongs or Yiruma(according to my mood and atmosphere...).

Sometimes, NO, a lot of times, I will replay one song 200 times(e.g. Don't forget to remember me-Carrie Underwood and Wait for me-Rebecca St. James).

Now I have a new collection of Hindi and Tamil songs in my playlist.

And of course ACTSperiment 1.0,2.0,3.0(very distracting some times, cos I will start singing along)

I can really focus if I want to, up to 6 or 7 hours. And if I woke up early that day or slept late the night before, after 15 minutes I will end up like this....

After another 15-30 minutes of Power-Nap on my desk(this one is not mine) I will wake up with a fresh mind.

I sleep practically on any desk, from the one in my apartment to the cubicle in the library=P.

And then the Prince in the dream wake up our little princess here...

Oh Happy Day, Happy Day!!

*This is NOT my apartment...mine is soooo much neater=)*

Oooops, seems like we are having a little bit of complication over here...

Hey, thats my Tamil writing=). Practicing frantically before exam, it looks really nice kan=).

But....
What's with that patch of water over there... Oh my my, it's my pool of Lar( Hindi). Scientifically, we call it saliva, and the little bit of chocolate over there reminds me that the owner of the DNA of that pool of saliva( it's a pool, if you are the size of an amoeba) just had an Ice-cream...
This shows how hard I study. And i will be very surprised if I didn't do well in my Tamil paper one hour ago=).

Please be very disgusted, if that makes you happy.

This is Just ME. Take it or leave it=).

* Thank you Queenie, photographer of the day*

2010-04-01T12:50:00.000+08:00

campus rEVOLution

2010-03-31T09:01:00.003+08:00

Yay, just came back from our morning CR session and it's really awesome=).

We have 12 today!

I was very encouraged by the fact that these juniors, after one year still comes faithfully EVERY MORNING, yes, it is EVERY MORNING. Whether it rains or shines, whether we have or don't have class, whether it is a week end or weekday, we still get out of our bed by the latest 7.29a.m.!

When I first started, I was wondering how many people is disciplined enough to do that, and I doubted myself too. But ya, by His mercy and grace, we did it!

We prayed for people's heart today during our personal need period.

Ling prayed that we will not awake true love before its time ,for true love waits, so powerful, girl..

Then we pray that we will love Jesus more than anything else, meaning that I have to give up some of my bad habits like skipping meals and spending too much=).

Then we pray for exams as juniors are having exams and Dorris covered all juniors in their pre-AS exam and seniors who have their Hindi paper tonight=).

We moved on praying for my SUPER-JUNIORS, as in junior's juniors, not the boys group.

And I reminded these young people that they themselves are the answer to OUR, the seniors prayer=).

We remember praying for more guys in CF because our year's CF was just filled with all girl-power. I remember once we went to Campus Alive and out of 7 people in the worship team, there is only 1 guy. ONE.=) (congrats shawn!)

We were just trying out, see whether God works or not, and c-c God give us a bunch of cute(as in cute in stature) junior guys with a servant's heart.

So, we will continue believing that the fire in KTT will never die!!

We prayed that our Campus Revo will grow in spirit and in number and that we will be able to be an INSPIRATION to the campuses out there.

In case you don't know, KTT has less than 1000 students(we think the number should be around 600) and we have regularLy 30-40 people in CF and 10-15 people in Campus Revo.

So the huge campuses out there, be challenged and shine brighter for God! Win the thousands of people out there for Him!

Our recent activity is to promote the usage of recyclable containers for ta-baoing.

We saw how our college matees got excited about EARTH HOUR and melzie said that

If they can be sooo excited about one hour, they can be excited about not using polystyrene boxes for take-aways=).

So all of us started using Tupperwares and containers and recycle bags!!(I use my ACTSperience bag!)

And we are impacting our housemates now! Go go go!

Thats about it. Gotta study Hindi.

Just found out yesterday that the 'legendary' Syarukh Khan is nothing but a legend, lol.

And Hindi movies can be very cool, minus all the obscene dances.

We have to skip fast forward almost half an hour of dancing...

Now, my lecturer's famous line keeps on ringing in my head, "Why so stress??"

Well, with a few hundreds alphabets to remember and simple words and sentences,

Jesus is the only reason why I am NOT stress.

But He is also the reason why I have to go study now.

3 Days

2010-03-31T07:19:00.001+08:00

God reminded me, I have three more days, before U-turn ends.

I shall pray and wait for a CONFIRMATION and an ANSWER.

Till then, I shall guard my heart, the wellsprings of my life=)

^^

2010-03-30T23:59:00.001+08:00

My Kannada Test

2010-03-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

I made some careless mistakes=).

But it is awesome.

I bet a lot of people is going to get full marks though=).

But I gave my all!

I honored Him!

Prodigal

2010-03-30T06:56:00.001+08:00

Living on my own, thinking for myself
Castles in the sand, temporary wealth
Walls are falling down, storms are closing in
Tears have filled my eyes, here I am again

And I've held out as long as I can
Now I'm letting go and holding out my hand

Daddy, here I am again
Will You take me back tonight
I went and made the world my friend
And it left me high and dry
I drag Your name back through the mud
That You first found me in
Not worthy to be called Your son
Is this to be my end
Daddy, here I am
Here I am again

Curse this morning sun
Drags me in to one more day
Of reaping what I've sown
Of living with my shame
Welcome to my world
And the life that I have made
Where one day you're a prince
The next day you're a slave

My parents are God-sent angels!

2010-03-29T22:25:00.004+08:00

I wonder who else but my daddy and mummy can take care of this reckless, stubborn little baby for 20 years...

I wonder who else but my daddy and mummy can cheer me up when I am emo-ing and fretting about setbacks in life...

I wonder who else but my daddy and mummy will have the patience and love to see me grow into the twenty year old baby^^...

It's very comforting to know that your parents always got your back!

I wonder what I have I done to deserve all this.

Daddy and Mummy, thank you for your love and trust.

Thank you for allowing me to join VIP.

No matter what happen, daddy, and no matter what happen, mummy,

No matter how I changed or grew,

There is one thing that will still remain:

I am always your little (*baby-omitted) girl

When you did something you are not suppose to do...

2010-03-29T15:07:00.003+08:00

How do you feel when you did something you are not suppose to do?

I always find myself end up in a mess, wondering how to reorganise everything and start all over again.

But somehow, I always manage to get back on my feet again.

This time, it's going to be the same.

I made the mistake, I pay the price.

It is like peeling onion.

As you peel, you cry.

But it is going to get better and better inside.

Just trust God. He has a reason behind everything.

I want to go home but I am stuck here.

Heard JPA people is coming tomorrow to officially announce our placement.

God, I really want to go to CMC, but since you have better plans for me in Karad, there I shall be. Smile girl.

God loves you.

When I drown myself in emo-ness, I always see God's sad face.

I wonder how many times had He cried for me, and how many times He try to comfort when I cry.

And how many times, I pushed Him away.

If there is a reason to smile and live a life victoriously, that reason would be You.

Thank you for what You have done on that cross 2000years ago.

Even when I fail You, I know You love me.

Random

2010-03-28T21:56:00.002+08:00

Pastor Dave was sharing in church today, how his family responded when he tell them he want to go full time one day.

And how God change their hearts=).

I feel so familiar=).

I never wanted something like joining VIP (volunteer and internship programme) before, and I really applaud myself for even having the guts to ask.

Well, I am leaving India in end of July or early August, so naturally the most important things to do is to stay at home, maybe go work part time and earn some money for buying stuff. But I really want to serve for a month, experience the life of a Full-time worker.

Daddy and Mummy, can you please just do this for me?

I don't want to go without your blessings, and I definitely won't go if you don't allow.

I will just pray. That somewhere along the line, God will allow a miracle=).

Exam postponed today=).

There can be miracles, when you believe. Praise God!!

I miss JUSTIN

2010-03-28T10:23:00.003+08:00

I miss Justin.

Haven't seen him for 5 weeks already.

How I wish he is here with me.

Ohya, by the way, Justin is the name of my Hofma guitar=)

Exam Fever

2010-03-27T22:49:00.004+08:00

If our brain is so simple that we can understand it, we will be so stupid that we will not understand our brain.

Dr. Lim Sue Ting,

Consultant,

Paediatric Neurosurgery Department

VIP-Volunteer and Internship Programme

2010-03-26T17:40:00.004+08:00

I want to join VIP for a month before I leave India, but it's like I will have not much time at home before I left for India.

Praying hard that if it is God's will, daddy and mummy will allow...

ACTS CHURCH

VIP Programme

Either way, I am happy=).

Learning it God's Way

2010-03-25T14:21:00.002+08:00

I wonder how many of the people around me have gone through what I am going through now, and how they respond to it.

I wonder how many hearts are broken each day, and how God cry when He sews them back.

I wonder how many people give up, how many pick it up again.

Now I know I've got a heart... 'Cause it's breaking.(Tin Man,The Wizard of Oz)

Sometimes I can be so into my life and everything about ME, that I forget what is more important in life.

Even Queenie told me one day that, MY blog is the blog with the most number of the letter and the pronoun "I", that she has ever seen.

Well, I like to talk about myself, me and who I am.

Because it is real to ME=).

Cogito, ergo sum.

Translation: I think, therefore I am.

But God's word says,

Before I formed you in the womb I knew you

Jeremiah 1:5

Before I think, I exist, because God exist.

PS: Might have to serve in the Chinese translation team in church, but I have only 2 months left...

Where I Will Be in 3 months Time

2010-03-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

The State of Maharashtra in India

The City of Karad in Maharashtra

Front View of the University

The AC(Air-conditioned buses)Pictures of Hostels

Random thoughts

2010-03-24T02:08:00.005+08:00

It's kinda weird.
=.=

I sometimes don't even recognise the girl in the mirror, or the girl talking and giving godly counsels to lost souls=P.
Is that really me?
I never imagined that before.

I have learnt so much in this one short week.
But there is this one thing that I need to improve on.
My spending.
For no particular reasons, I spent 700++ this month.
Minus books, church and Aunty Mirah, my miscellaneous expenses mount up to 400++, which is my monthly JPA allowance.
Which means I am spending my hard-earned salary.
Aww...Mommy and daddy,please forgive me, for I know not what I do..
I shall practice self-control=)and bear the fruit of the Holy Spirit.

Thank God that in 3 months time I am gonna get 700USD a month.(Pwaise God!)
I am paid to study.

I am really tempted to skip tomorrow's class.
God give me patience and endurance.
I must be a good testimony!!

PS: Lynthia's blogpost is really cool. I am beautiful in God's eyes=), and my dad's.(lol)

PSPS: I will try to go home, but exam is coming up next week...have to wait wait wait.

Miss Home...

2010-03-21T08:22:00.001+08:00

18 years had come and gone
For momma they flew by
But for me they drug on and on
We were loading up that Chevy
Both tryin' not to cry
Momma kept on talking
Putting off good-bye
Then she took my hand and said
"Baby don't forget:

Before you hit the highway
You better stop for gas
And there's a 50 in the ashtray
In case you run short on cash
Here's a map and here's a Bible
If you ever lose your way

Just one more thing before you leave
Don't forget to remember me"

This downtown apartment sure makes me miss home
and those bills there on the counter
Keep telling me I'm on my own
And just like every Sunday I called momma up last night
And even when it's not, I tell her everything's all right
Before we hung up I said
"Hey momma, don't forget:

to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fall
And tell me-maw that I miss her
Yeah, I should give her a call
And make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girl
Yeah I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to be
Don't forget to remember me"

Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to pray
I haven't done this in a while
So I don't know what to say but
Lord, I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' place
Yeah, I know theres more important things, but
Don't forget to remember me

Don't forget to remember me

My Current Study Life #1

2010-03-21T01:33:00.004+08:00

My Aim: To be able to read this=)

God's Simple Plan of Salvation in Hindi

When I first rededicated my life, I remembered complaining about why God doesn't bless me with the versatility that a lot of my peers have. I remember standing at my place during worship sessions, barely lift up my hands and sing, while my mind wandering elsewhere and my eyes focusing on the hands on the keyboard and fretboard. I wished I can one day be at least half as good as one of them, though I half believe that it is not going to happen.

Thank God that He is a great God.

Sometimes I really wonder why I should really know those languages that I might never use.
I MIGHT never use.

But there and then God reminded me of how He has again and again tested my faithfulness in stewarding the talents and opportunities that He has blessed me with. He challenged me whenever I feel like giving up and His words felt so real to me.

What if one day, there is a need of someone who is able to converse in Indian languages to reach out to His people? Will I be able to say " Here I am, sent me", or will I bowed my head in regrets and shame that I have never appreciate the opportunity to learn?

Honor God. That is the only thing that keeps me moving on when I want to give up=).

That is the reason why I work hard^^, giving God nothing less than my best!

*to be continued*

U-Turn

2010-03-20T19:03:00.002+08:00

Many things happened at one go.
From the MOST significant one-University placement,
to the LEAST(have to admit that) significant one-Another college girl crush(give myself one more week to get over it).
But I am glad that things are changing.

U-Turning.

For the better(praise God!)

Thank God for KIMSU.
Thank God for my parents and family.
Thank God for my friends.(Gonna miss them all).
Thank God for ACTS Church and the wonderful people there.
Thank God my heart is not dead=).
Thank God I am learning more and more each day!

P/S: U-Turn is the 21 days prayer and fasting period of ACTS Church.( MY Church!!)

Learning

2010-03-17T19:34:00.003+08:00

Changed my blog skin finally^^

A lot of changes to be made still.

Now I realise I am not as IT savvy as I once thought, and my best friend's laptop got infected by virus from my pendrive, because I use the library printer.

Going through the 5th day of fasting, and praying hard for CMC.

God's will be done-lah^^.

Smile. Jesus is looking at you from heaven=).

It's my life.

2010-03-13T00:57:00.001+08:00

And so KI(Kursus Intensif India) is a time for relaxing.
Fooling around and squandering taxpayers' money.
And so, it's your parents' money anyway(they pay their taxes, don't they?).
And so, it does not matter whether you know your ka, kaa, ki, kee, ku, kuu....
And you hate your classmate who knows every single aksharamale(letters in kannada), because she is such a kiasu.

I just want to make my parents proud, I want to show appreciation to my lecturers effort, no matter how good or bad they are, I want to give God my BEST, when He has already given me so much.

I don't mind being called kiasu just because I am giving all that I can.
I don't mind being teased just because I want to make those people who really love and care about me proud.
I don't mind not being 'cool', just because I don't go out every weekend.
I don't mind burying myself in books.

Because one day,when I look back at these days, I will not remember how many alphabets I'd learnt, or how many knowledge I'd gained, but the attitude and character that I have with me today, will follow me the rest of my life.

So guys, have fun out there and if you are unhappy, call me kiasu, I don't mind. Only losers will never be afraid of losing.
Please back off and leave me alone.
It's my life, not yours.

P/S: Praying hard for a good university=)

I'm back

2010-03-08T12:59:00.002+08:00

After 3 months of 'persecution', 'trials' and 'testing' at my wonderful workplace I am finally back to KTT, me beloved college.
Well things haven't change much, just that they have now a mini version of that big bus.

Life during KI is actually very free and chillax, but I don't know for what reasons I did not attempt to update my blog until now.
Well, I don't even know what to write now.
I guess nowadays I am no longer the little girl who display all her thoughts recklessly and publicly online=).

Miss home...

When being alive means crossing each day from the calendar....

2010-01-19T14:07:00.003+08:00

Since 2 years ago when I was waiting for my SPM result, I have never looked forward to something as much as this.

Now I realised how HARD it is to stand for your faith in your workplace, now I know how hard it is to be the LIGHT and the SALT, now I know what it means by 'to take up your cross and Follow ME'.
This is a season for me to grow and to exercise faithfulness.

All of my life, in every season,
You are still God, I have a reason to sing,
I have a reason to worship.

Wake me up, when February ends...

Christmas Celebration in Kindergarten!

2009-12-28T13:41:00.001+08:00

At Home

2009-11-30T20:47:00.002+08:00

Finally home.
And manage to get a try-out tomorrow...as a tuition teacher.
Read East of Eden and To Kill a Mockingbird. Awesome!!
Penang the Green state, to day is no-plastic-bag day=)，in fact every Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday...

Everything is OK.
Did my check up, and can't believe my weight has gone up so much after A2.
Very glad that my parents are proud of my Best Overall Award=).

Hopefully tomorrow's tryout will turn out to be alright.

And yea, I miss KTT=)

Last blog post from KTT 2009

2009-11-21T01:36:00.002+08:00

Time really flies

And I really can't imagine tomorrow I am going to spent my last night here in KTT.

First I really really feel so honoured to be given the opportunity to deliver the graduation speech on behalf of my fellow batch-mates=).

I am very happy to have spent 18 months here with all of you, learning and growing with a bunch of young lively promising Malaysians.

I am going to dance=).

Traditional fan dance.

I am so happy to be able to have the chance to dance with 5 gorgeous, lovely girls and we manage to choreograph and all in less than 2 hours!

You guys are awesome!

Well, as for our class performance, hmmm...Let's see how it goes on the night itself la...

Prom night is the theme this year.

And guess what, I just spent rm20 from top to bottom=)

Thanks to Melissa Carolyn for her pink floral dress, Via for the pair of earrings she bought for me, Queenie for her white wedges, and Sarah for getting me a nice white Pashmina shawl, thought I still have't figure out what exactly is pashmina...

So in the end, I just paid for he shawl, and the rest are either others or my own...

I am so sorry that I am not exactly someone who has a nice figure, and can wear nice dresses=).

But I hope I look presentable...

Hopefully everything will be alright.

Going back on Sunday!

Cheerio!

Christian Medical College Vellore

2009-11-03T09:46:00.001+08:00

If the Lord is willing, there I shall be=)

Your Rights Are Protected

2009-10-18T21:44:00.001+08:00

Article 11

Every person has the right to profess and practice his religion and, subject to Clause (4), to propagate it.
No person shall be compelled to pay any tax the proceeds of which are specially allocated in whole or in part for the purposes of a religion other than his own.
Every religious group has the right -
- (a) to manage its own religious affairs;
- (b) to establish and maintain institutions for religious or charitable purposes; and
- (c) to acquire and own property and hold and administer it in accordance with law.
State law and in respect of the Federal Territories of Kuala Lumpur and Labuan, federal law may control or restrict the propagation of any religious doctrine or belief among persons professing the religion of Islam.
This Article does not authorize any act contrary to any general law relating to public order, public health or morality.

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I WANTED to make your everything, alright

2009-10-16T09:04:00.003+08:00

I think ya, I had never tried so hard to sow into someone's life.
You may not feel it, you might even despised it.

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Thank you anyway, for once, being part of my life.
It hurts but it is already healed.
I am so sorry, but ya, maybe even before the world began, God had intended us to go separate ways.

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....