Christian Medical College Vellore

If the Lord is willing, there I shall be=)

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Article 11

1. Every person has the right to profess and practice his religion and, subject to Clause (4), to propagate it.
2. No person shall be compelled to pay any tax the proceeds of which are specially allocated in whole or in part for the purposes of a religion other than his own.
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   • (c) to acquire and own property and hold and administer it in accordance with law.
4. State law and in respect of the Federal Territories of Kuala Lumpur and Labuan, federal law may control or restrict the propagation of any religious doctrine or belief among persons professing the religion of Islam.
5. This Article does not authorize any act contrary to any general law relating to public order, public health or morality.

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I WANTED to make your everything, alright

I think ya, I had never tried so hard to sow into someone's life.
You may not feel it, you might even despised it.

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

Thank you anyway, for once, being part of my life.
It hurts but it is already healed.
I am so sorry, but ya, maybe even before the world began, God had intended us to go separate ways.

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

Your Love had Made me Grown

I was a very bad girl.

At least at home.

I am the problematic daughter that a parent will choose not to have, if given a chance=).

I used to complaint a lot, why I am not loved by my parents.

I feel like my siblings got all the attention and privileges.

It happens, especially when you are the youngest in your family.

This is not the decade where you can equate youngest child to pampered child.

I feel like the world is being so unfair to me.

I feel like God hates me so much because of what I need to go through.

I never knew I was wrong.

Until yesterday.

I was sitting in Pak Cik Sabar's cab(sempat pulak nak advertise ni...), on the way to CIMB Bandar Baru Nilai, to replace my lost ATM Card.

As usual, I put on my 'EMO" mode, and started to picture our departure to India, which is going to happen in less than 300 days, i think maybe around 250.

And then, I cried=).

Ya, in the cab.

I cried, ok, I did not wail or brawl.

Just 'teardrops on my sling bag'.

I come to a sudden realisation of what my parents had done for me all the while until I finally come to this point of my life.

Going overseas to study medicine, the passion of my life(used-to-be, not-as-much-now, but-still-a-lot).

How they had taught me, from knowing my alphabets, until I can design my own experiment=), and blog in not-so-perfect but comprehensible English.

My parents are not vocal and expressive about their love for me. Maybe that is the reason why I missed it as a young but not-so-innocent brat.

I will miss them very very soon.

I thanked God that He sent me into their life, into this family.

I am nothing, if not because of my parents.

Every nucleotide base in me comes from my Papa and Mama.

I have small eyes, big nose and a big mouth(both literally and figuratively).

I am proud to be someone carrying the surname 'LIM'.

God made me who I am.

I used to asked God, why can't I be the perfect girl with

awesome background,

unblemished past,

admirable qualities,

unspotted personalities,

just everything an angel should have.

=). How I wish I am talking about myself, lol.

But He gave me an answer, recently, that whatever I had gone through, He used it to mould me and shape me, so that in the process of struggling and growing, I will have first hand experience, and now, I am be able to relate to a lot of broken hearts and broken souls around me.

I thought I was broken but He made me realise that I am whole, again.

I am so grateful to have my parents as my parents.

I am so sorry that I was such a jerk(as a silly daughter), I am so sorry that I did not know better.

But your love had really made me grown, and still growing.

He has shut a door for me that no one can open

Mistakes That You Cannot Afford To Make

Some mistakes in life you cannot afford to make.

I am not a sadist nor a pessimist, and I am definitely not someone that believes in dogmas like

“Your birth is a mistake you'll spend your whole life trying to correct.”

I did make a lot of deadly mistakes in my life.

And I had never succeeded in stop making more mistakes.

I was reading quotes on mistakes and this quote by Oscar Wilde really catches my attention:

“Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.”

I sometimes wonder, is making mistakes a necessity and a part of growing? Could I have learnt without making mistakes? Why do I need to go through the pain and the shame? It is so true that most of the time we named our mistakes experiences even though most of the time, we would not have want to experience it if given a second chance. Louis Miquel said this: “I think we all wish we could erase some dark times in our lives. But all of life's experiences, bad and good, make you who you are. Erasing any of life's experiences would be a great mistake.” I am who I am, not because of the chances I take but the choices I made. I know how hot is a kettle on a stove, because I touched it. And I know how long it takes to heal, and am grateful that My creator is able to heal it. “Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.” Arrgh, I thought I have grown enough to not make any mistakes, but ya, God won't lead me to a place that I won't need Him anymore. Sometimes it is more dangerous to be good than to not be good. I always oscillates=), but I think it is still an exponential growth graph not a decay curve. “You may make mistakes, but you are not a failure until you start blaming someone else” And this is powerful!! Do you admit that you are as imperfect as me? But did you ever wonder why is there a standard of perfection that no human can ever attain in our hearts? Have you ever wonder where does our conscience and moral system comes from? From biological molecules form from an array of atoms? Cogito, ergo sum. I think therefore I am. But where does your thought first comes from? I thank God that I have all these life's toughest questions solved. I made mistakes. And I am learning how to take it as it is. Call a sin a sin. I am thankful that I do not need to be a saint who does not sin, nor do I need to be someone who have to disowned all the desires of my heart. I am thankful that God created me. I fall, but He lifted me up again. I was lost, but He found me, and bring me back down the road I am suppose to be. I am thankful that everytime I ask for His forgiveness, His love is like the rain the washes away the crab holes on the beach of my heart. Have you ever made any mistakes that cannot be forgiven in life? Have you ever wonder whether you will be given a sceond chance or will spent eternity in the fires of hell?? By grace, I know that I have a place in heaven. All I need to do is to claim my ticket. The ticket to heaven, to forgiveness and to salvation is just two words. Jesus said: Just Believe. I claimed mine, have you??

Awesome-ness

Recovered.

And it feels soooooooooo good to be healthy again=)
Not just physically strong, but emotionally stronger now too.

I am so glad that the day that I had waited for so long had finally came, without I realising it.
What a relief....

Everything is as awesome as ever now=) Praise the Lord.
Got back my ok-ok result.
It's good la, just that I am very self-demanding=), academic-wise.

A2 is coming in 3 weeks time.
And so sad to say, I am the most relaxed one in college.
No joke.
The worst part is I am very proud of myself being relax.
God, save me=).